ICYMI, I have not been on radio.
I struggle to share certain things about my personal journey…sometimes. And it’s a little confusing because I don’t know what my own algorithm is. I was very open about the experience of losing my dad and clearly have no problem crying on the air. I’ve shared many personal stories on the radio. But sometimes I just struggle with the "who cares?" demon. I think this is my Mercury in Capricorn’s fault. “Does this feel like it has a purpose Kelly?” This is part of why I haven’t been able to cough up a book. I am certain there is purpose and meaning in my personal journeys but then my Aquarius sun goes “sharing is boring. Let’s change the world silly emo girl”.
I'm already making faces at the screen as I type. But aaaaanyway, earlier this year I hit a wall. 2 parts frustration, 1 part depression, 1 part creative boredom, and 16 parts over commitment. I needed a break from the way too many commitments I had started suffocating on. I had, at 1 point, 2 radio shows, horoscopes, a newsletter, some youtube stuff, a full time job as a marketing director, the client work, oh, and children. you know...no big. (Please visualize the faces I am making at myself as some voice in my head chides “Bitch, get off the cross, it’s almost Easter…”
Ugh. Anyway, I just felt like I was going to explode or die or something. I think "Bajiggity" is the perfect word. Bajiggity level 9. So I started peeling things back little by little but no relief came. So I just reached out to my people and said "I have to take a break". And my people were supportive and great. I did it with no announcement or post or blog or “to be continued” or anything because I just had nothing to say about it. So there we are.
For me, putting the microphone away has been weird and I’m still not sure what to do with my energy. I need more. But the radio show turned podcast that started as “Armed & Dating” still lives. We’ve really wandered around on brand identity but we landed here on Bitchsplainin’, as a nod to the mansplaining world we trudge through. The issues that I really want to talk about, I talk about them here.
So as we try to grow this into something, I would love your support, subscriptions, reviews etc. There are a million voices out there. I listen to a lot of podcasts and I can tell you, a lot of them suck. Like anything in the modern world, it’s easy to ignore the stuff we like. But when you see a post you like on social media, or a video or a podcast that you dig, you should like it, as in, the action of “liking” it. Otherwise, the voices you want to hear are drowning in a sea of algorithms and bullshit.
We’re here on iTunes: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/bitchsplainin/id1262174478
But you can listen there, or at Podomatic, or on Spotify
And I’m trying to motivate myself to amp up my YouTube channel. Why this is a struggle is something I’m still figuring out. Creative burn out? Yes. But also I think I’m really angry about stuff going on in the big world and in my small world, and I’m trying to find a voice for that anger. I’m not afraid of being a bitch. But I do want to be understood that the anger has a (fucking capricornian) purpose. I’m tired of people hating themselves because of societal and cultural paradigms that are ridiculous, limiting, and damaging. So I am Bitchsplaining…